Greetings from under the protection of my mosquito net in my mud house in the middle of no where Sudan . (Strangely, saying stuff like that doesn’t get any less weird as time goes on.) I also bring greetings from the bugs, as they’ve come out en masse at the inviting light of my laptop screen. J
So, we’re back here in Lopit. I can tell because there was a frog in my bathroom this morning and the toilet doesn’t have a flush. The children were calling my name from the fence. I went out to greet them this morning and they emptied their pockets of peanuts—a welcome-home gift for us, I’m sure. My shirt was full of them by the time they were done. What a wonderful way to begin my day here in Lopit—what a wonderful way to begin the next three months.
Unfortunately, the whole day didn’t go so well. We came home in the cover of night again (see long entry about long travels, haha), so people came to greet us in the morning and brought news that our neighbor’s child had died while we were away. Jacob was five. He died of malaria. We knew it was going to happen eventually—that this kind of tragedy, so commonplace our villages and in the bush, would hit really close to home.
Mary and William, Jacob’s parents, are some of our closest friends; their compound is just above ours. William has three wives—two of which live on the compound and have been with us since the beginning. The news came as a shock; somehow, we hadn’t prepared ourselves for it. Kimmie took it really hard. Jacob wasn’t the only one to died while we were gone; two other children also fell to malaria. Or Jok, the bad god, if you ask the locals. I’m not sure yet how to answer them when they go on about how Jok took the child. I have not the words or the understanding of their beliefs. And that’s frustrating.
That night I sat on Anuk’s (William’s other wife) compound and played with some of my favorite children—Asunta (the one laying on the rocks in a picture awhile back), Paula, Francis and Franco. We always have fun with my batteria (torch/flashlight). They just love it. Somehow, though, they’re always surprised when they turn it on and it shines in their eyes and it hurts. They’ve gotten the idea that it hurts my eyes; Asunta always takes her little hands and shields my eyes for me. I think the greatest part is when they accidentally click the torch off and then try to get it back on by blowing on it, like you would when you’re kindling a fire. They do it to the indigo light on my watch, too. Priceless. Just priceless.
I ended up on my back on a grass mat, looking up at the moon and the stars, with Asunta spread out across my stomach and Paula playing with my hair. And I looked at them in the moonlight (it’s always such a pretty thing here, seeing the light of the moon on their dark beautiful faces) and I thought what it would be like if one of them got sick and died. I know you can get callous when you’re working in Africa , especially in areas where war and disease are common. I never want to get to that place where I no longer feel at a child’s funeral. But I can feel it already some, already it’s not so shocking, not so painful, when I hear of what’s happening.
(OK, maybe read this next bit before you read it to the kids. A warning.)
Steve has seen a lot, through being a soldier and then a missionary in Sudan during the war. He’s seen dead bodies, starving children, the whole lot. And even he will say he’s callous in some ways. But right before we left, Heinrich told us about his neighbors—the mama punished her young son by thrusting his arms, up to his elbows, into boiling water. (Or at least that’s how the story goes.) Heinrich said the mama ran away with the three-week-old newborn; the boy was just sitting on the compound, quivering in pain. That hit us all hard. Even Steve, who has seen so much, had to stop things and walk away.
There are some things, I guess, we’ll never understand, except to say man is fallen. How anyone can think there is anything good in us outside of God is a wonder to me.